A new passion…kind of

Did I tell you about my latest passion? Shopping for clothes. Strange as it may seem, considering my body image, I actually have fun doing it. I knew I always had it in me. (All those hours on www.stardoll.com, paid off.) A couple of weeks ago, I decided to take my money and treat myself. I treated myself to about $250 worth of clothes and accessories. I bought clothes that actually FIT!! I also proudly bought a girdle, which is somthing I was avoiding for YEARS!!

Macy’s, Lane Bryant, The Avenue, Oh My!!!

I am slowly starting to come to terms with my body and size. I try to no longer be in denial because of society’s hang ups. I also found out that despite my weight, I am petite. This was quite exciting to find out but…awkward. How can a 5 foot 3.5 inch, 275 lbs, size 10 WW shoe woman be petite? Thank God for my height because that’s the only reason why I am petite. And guess what? They actually sell PLUS SIZE PETITE clothing. I have a new love affair with Lane Bryant and The Avenue and Macy’s. They cater to women like me. Those stores make me feel “special”. I have the attitude now that they made those stores especially for me. We have our own stores and section plus sizers!! Embrace it while you can.

I guess the gist of this story is that I CAN look beautiful. I AM beautiful. I feel good in my clothes now. I am no longer hoping to fit into a size 16 when I KNOW I am a size 22/24. I am embracing this feeling. This is actually making me want to go and exercise because I DESERVE to treat myself good like this. I am actually kind of sad that one day, I won’t be “special” anymore. I will be like everyone else shopping in “regular” stores with the “regular” people.

I am going to enjoy this while I can so that one day I can look back and say “I looked good as a size 22, I look good now, and I look good no matter what!!!”